So I had this insanely cool dream a few days ago. .... Actually, once I start talking about it you'll probably be like "this is so lame! It's like something out of an anime!" ... >_> Well I thought it was cool.

So my friends and I were all part of this.... like... elite group of demon fighters/hunters. But not really. We just fought these evil blob thingys. And there was a headbadguy whose appearance constantly changed, and it had to take over someone's body every year or so in order to survive (for some reason ...) 

Anyway. I don't know why I knew this, but whenever it picked someone it wanted to take-over, it would kidnap them and trap them in its hideout for a few days so they would get weak enough for it to take over without struggle. And it would keep them there by pulling their feet underground and twisting their legs till they broke. o_o; 

Well, there was this random really girly-girl that we knew it was targeting for it's next body, so we were protecting her. Everybody had their own really cool power/fighting style thing. And... for some reason... (I REALLY don't know why) I was super apathetic about EVERYTHING. I just didn't care. Well, they assigned me to be the bodyguard for the girl we were protecting while they all beasted on the demonblob things. So I stood there next to her. Literally.

Then after they had won, they took the girl away and everyone was like 'yay we won'. Then Zech appeared next to me, and said something. I was still apathetic, and was like 'hm.' Then I noticed Zech was on the other side of the room with the people, and when I looked at the Zech next to me, he was suddenly a woman with red hair in white clothes, and she grabbed me and jumped out the window. My mind stayed with everyone in the building, and my friends from college were like "OH NO HE KIDNAPPED ELIZ OH EM GEE" and my friends from home were like "She'll be fine till we find her." (Not in a we-dont-care way, in a they really believed i could take care of myself way... you know? XD) 

So then it went to where I was. And I was in this dark room with a dirt floor, and the evildude was in the shadows talking at me. And it was like "So... should I try to keep you here?" And I knew he was talking about the breaking the leg thing, so I was like (apathetically of course) "Well. How about we make a deal. You can pull my feet underground, but don't break my legs. Pain is pointless." 

So he pulled my feet underground, but didn't break my legs. And then somehow I was sitting at a table, and it put ramen in front of me. I just said, "So. Is this poisoned?" It was still constantly changing, but it smiled and said "No. Why would I kill you now?" So I shrugged and ate it. >.>; 

Then all my friends showed up but they couldnt find me for some reason. Then when they came in the room I was in, I was like "Finally." Then it pulled me underground and next thing I knew I was in a warehouse outside. They all came outside and were having an epic battle with the badguy. The badguy was getting weaker and weaker so he suddenly attacked me and tried to take over my body. But it was harder because I wasn't weak so I could fight back. Buuuuut....

THEN I WOKE UP. >____< I got really annoyed cause I tried to go back to sleep to finish, but I couldn't!!! T^T

Anyway. Finals are going ok. My two finals that I needed to write essays for were Monday. x_x And Math is tomorrow, and German is Thursday. I'm SO WORRIED about German because Dr. Schiketanz scares the hell out of me. AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY. >_O He's like... the shyest professor I've ever met and he still makes me so nervous! And our final is me and him sitting in a room with me telling him a fairytale in German. >_> -sigh-

Anyway. My roommate and some girls are waxing their armpits in the living room. I wasn't invited to join, so I don't particularly care, but they're yelling alot. Oh well. 

I want to make my Merry fangirl outfit but... I don't think I have the time to make a good one. -.- I guess I'll just go to Akon as a normal person. Again. Oh well. :/ The agony.... lol. -_- I guess I kinda wanted to dress up as something though. Hmm..... >_> Oh well. I have to focus on finals right now anyway. K. I'm gonna go. Goodnight everyone. (Not that.. anyone reads this but still... >.>)

Gah. I just finished Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer. I don't know what to say. When I tried to do a journal cut last time the link never worked so I'm just going to try my hardest to not say anything that might ruin it for anyone randomly reading this. What I will say though....

JACOB IS SUCH AN ANNOYING, WHINY, CHILDISH, UNDERHANDED, STUPID, CONNIVING, TRICKING, ..... THING. BLARARARARG!

Ok, allow me to explain myself. I liked Jacob at first. I really did. Because he gave Bella someone who she could connect with when she was having a hard time, and he was a good bestfriend. But I really did like him! 
Then, the turned into a werewolf. Now, before I start getting random comments from people I dunno talking about how werewolves are liek omg teh best, allow me say... I have no problem with werewolves. (In fiction lol...) I mean, I actually think turning into a huge wolf is pretty freaking cool. I have NOTHING against him for being a werewolf.

What I do have against him is, after he changed, he suddenly becomes this bitchy little... whore. Ok, not literally whore, but what the hell man?! Some of that shit he pulled (ESPECIALLY later in Eclipse) was NOT COOL. I wannted to slap him. UGH. But I'd probably break my hand like Bella.

Speaking of Bella, she's annoying me too. I mean... I understand you've had it pounded in your head to not marry right out of high school, but is that really a valid reason for spazzing/freaking out and practically.... i dunno... insult the man youre in love with? I don't think so.

Anyway, I have to hurry. 

The reason I'm angsty is cause i was looking up random stuff about Stephenie Meyers and this series, and she has such a huge freakin fan base. I've always wanted to be an author, to write stuff people love. And, no this is not about the publicity or popularity or anything, but I want like... to inspire people to read my stuff you know? And it seems like shes successfully done that after only one book/series. Do you know how rare that is? I mean... Stephen King had to send Carrie to like 13 different publishers before he actually got someone to even look at it longer that a minute. 

I'm sure Ms Meyers put a lot of effort in too and that she wasn't accepted right away (if she was then damn...) but still. To become so well-known, popular, with booksignings that look like a con cause there are so many people? After your first series? Damn. I wanna be able to write so impressively. I wanna be able to capture people with my writing too. 

Sob. Lol I'm angsting. I have such low self esteem that I'm desperately attempting to ignore the stupid voice(s) in the back of my head saying I'll never do it. Never make it or whatever. But I'm going to do it darn it all! I will become an author, if its the last thing I do! I dunno about being super popular (I don't want spotlight, just people to read...) I just... want to make a difference in a way? As cheesey and lame as this sounds books have made a huge difference in my life. I want to do that for other people too. 

On a random note: My favorite author is still Tamora Pierce (sorry Ms Meyers...) I think its cause her books were the first ones that actually influenced me in such a dramatic way. And I've read every book in the realm of Tortall at LEAST seven times. >.> -is a nerd- Lol. Anyway, not to say I don't love Ms Meyers... I really do. I admire her a lot. And I don't mean to be a bad fan angsting over her characters lol... I just have opinions. Lol, there are some Tamora Pierce  characters I don't like too, so dont think I'm partial! XD

Anyway, I'm going to bed. (Now that its like 6 AM... GG) I just needed to angst/rant a little about my ... dream(s)/hope(s) Lol. /end random stuff

PS: Jasper and Carlisle are two of my most favorite characters ever. And Edward of course, but he's a giveaway so I had to mention Carlisle and Jasper. :D Yeah~
PSS: Sorry for language.... >_>;