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irodorinosanka
21 January 2008 @ 02:15 am
Round Two...  

 So. Everyone pretty much got drunk again tonight. J, Z, and myself were the only sober ones. Again. And... thankfully no one really got sick as bad as last time but everyone was SUPER crazy.

I would go into detail but I just really dont feel like it. I think I'm having another one of those random bouts that I just have to get through. Ugh, ok this is going to sound so self dramatizing and I really dont mean it that way. But the majority of my life I've always had someone telling me what was wrong with me. Like I was too fat, not pretty enough, not sexy/appealing, too smart, the bookworm, antisocial, depressed, wore stupid clothing, etc etc. Whether it was super rude bully like people at school, the pretty girls, or just certain people at home... there's always kinda been someone. 

Now, all of a sudden, there's no one doing that any more. And it is just blowing my subconcious crazy that its possible for people to just like me. I don't know why. So I keep jumping to these idiotic conclusions that people don't like me, but then I find out they actually think really highly of me and just... I dunno. It makes me tired. 

Ugh. So now that you all think I feel sorry for myself (which I dont) or whatnot, I'm gonna go to bed. I'll talk about tonight later. Maybe tomorrow. Hopefully by then I'll have some Youtube videos as evidence to go along with the story. Goodnight.

[Hmm... this is supposed to be a happy journal. I guess I should say something happy before leaving so it meets the quota...]

I'm applying to go to Korea for an Intensive Language Program over the summer. The chances i'll get accepted are slim, but I'm applying anyway. I hope I get to do it. And Crew is going ok. Not quite so sore anymore, but I'm still just a little bit worried about balancing working out and the school work. I'm gonna have to just give the two week trial a go. -nod- And I'm not sure if I even have practice tomorrow... Hm.

Does this count? It better because I'm exhausted and I want to go to bed. So Good Night. <3

 
 
Current Location: Dorm
Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Duel Jewel -Bullet
 
 
irodorinosanka
19 January 2008 @ 12:20 am
Drunken Night...  
No. It's not me. I didn't get drunk. I didn't even drink.  But pretty much everyone else did. I don't think they'll read this so I suppose its safe to talk about it. I suppose I'll be nice and abbreviate their names to the first digit. Er... letter. >_> Whut...

So, my Roommate, E, came down and told me that everyone was up in Me's room playing drinking games. So I decide to go watch... and Holy ... Crap. Lol... maybe I'm only surprised cause I've never really been around drunk people before. I take that back, been around wasted people before. 

So I get there and I see Ma falling around the living room. Uh. I can't remember everything in sequential detail, but the basics I think I can handle. So... K started hanging on me and hugging me and poking me in the chest and face and telling me basically... that she really loved me. And she loved me because I am an amazing person. And that I was her fantasy. And that she really really wanted me to succeed at Crew. Because I deserved it. And that I was a beautiful person and that she wanted me to be happy. Because I deserved to be happy. And that if any guy ever tried to fuck with me I should tell her because she would cut their balls off. And she didn't care if she went to jail. Because she'd be happy. And so on and so forth. Then she kissed me on the cheek. 

Let it be known... this happened about five different times. She took turns going around to all the girls and telling them the basics of that. (Not Crew thats just me...) 

Then Ma fell over on the floor in the bedroom so I had to help him up and carry him into the living room with Me. We were trying to lie him on his stomach on the couch but he kept rolling off. Then C kept asking if Ma wanted his shoes off and he just kept saying "Ok but... don't eat them. Please don't eat them." Then he got up and kept trying to walk again. And he was dancing weirdly. And taking his shirt off. E had to put his shirt back on and she just said to me " I just dressed a toddler..."

Then Kev was... just super freaking hyper. Like a two year old. Omg. x_x He told E that Ma liked her but she was like "Well I don't like him like that..." and then he kept freaking out that he had told her even though she technically already knew... And then E started freaking out about how she was getting tired of all the guys liking her and she didn't know why they did. 

Anyway, so ... K got sick. Me, S, and I took care of her. She ended up asleep on S's couch. Then Ma got sick in his own bathroom and I think they got him situated in his bed. Everyone else was pretty tipsy except for N, cause he'd been taking care of everyone till I got there. Then when I got there he took out his own personal bottle... lol... it was pretty crazy. So I think I ended the night as the only one without any alcohol consumption.

Well... actually more went on than that. But it's late and I have to go Urg in the morning. x_x 

Oh! We didn't have to run in the rain today! :,D We got to go to the WRAC and play basketball. Which I suck at but... I only fell three times, and the third time Hooker (yes thats his name) stepped on my ankle. But it doesn't hurt. At least not now. I think I did pretty well for not knowing a thing about basketball and I suck at ... sports in general. Lol, but I want to do well in Crew. I really do. And not just because K thinks I deserve it lol.

I'm SO sore though. Like... I can't even explain to you. It hurts to even just walk. I have to Urg in the morning so I hope it gets better by then. (Urging is a machine that you practice on for rowing. It's so freaking hard... ) K well I'm going to bed. Gnight! <3
 
 
Current Location: Dorm
Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Duel Jewel Bullet
 
 
 
 

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