Lol, I haven't updated in so long. I'm currently finishing off the box of chocolates I got..... From my roommate's Mom. >_>; Lol, valentine's was the exact way it is every year : Completely uneventful. But I'm not complaining. It's better than having something bad happen. I think I may even prefer nothing happening, cause if something ever did I wouldn't know how to deal with it. xD 

Anyway. I got my friend Sophie to watch Howl's Moving Castle, and she absolutely loved it. She got so excited about it, she was like "I wanna watch everything this guy has ever made now! I have to make the other girls watch this too!" And I was like "o.o ... I made a monster..."

Hmm. Oh, I yelled at Thomas the other day. Well I guess it was like a week ago now. But we were in Corey and Jason's room, and Corey and Sarah (who are dating now) were just like flirting cutsey like with each other. Nothing bad, just like she would put her head on his shoulder, and they touched noses once. But it's not like they were making out or anything.

Well, Sarah left the room to go to bed, and right when she shut the door behind her, Thomas turned around to Corey and he was like "Do you think that could have been ANY more obvious?!" And Corey was in such a good mood, he didn't let it bother him so he was just like "Well, I dunno, maybe. :D" 

Well the entire situation pissed me off, and I'm glad that Corey was able to brush it off, but... I was tired (it was midnight and we were doing math), I had a migraine, and I couldn't figure out the last math problem. So I was like "THOMAS. WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM? YOU'RE BEING SO FUCKING RUDE." And Thomas was like "Well that's not what I was meaning..." So I yelled back, 'I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU WERE MEANING, IT WAS RUDE AND YOU'RE A FUCKING BASTARD SO SHUT UP." And he said something else under his breath so I crumpled up a piece of paper, threw it at him, and left. Then he sent me some sappy-ass apology on facebook saying he was just depressed this time of year because he didn't know anybody who thought of him as 'datable'. I was like wtf...

Anyway. I started playing MapleStory again. I got my friends Jason and Sophie into it too. Now I just have to convince Kami, Van and Nick to get on and we can have a big ol' party. Yeah! 

Ok, the wind is seriously getting annoying. It needs to stop. The weather just needs to stop. And Crew is killing me. Like... we got our prospective schedule and it almost makes me want to quit. But I think I'm going to tough it out for at least the rest of the semester. And I wanna know if I got accepted to that Korea thing! I'm tired of waiting! >.< Sigh... I'm so impatient. 

I'm gonna go work now, so I'll try to make more updates later. Nothing else has happened I don't think. Although, it probably has and I just forgot about it.  Hm. Maplestory yeah! ;D

No. It's not me. I didn't get drunk. I didn't even drink.  But pretty much everyone else did. I don't think they'll read this so I suppose its safe to talk about it. I suppose I'll be nice and abbreviate their names to the first digit. Er... letter. >_> Whut...

So, my Roommate, E, came down and told me that everyone was up in Me's room playing drinking games. So I decide to go watch... and Holy ... Crap. Lol... maybe I'm only surprised cause I've never really been around drunk people before. I take that back, been around wasted people before. 

So I get there and I see Ma falling around the living room. Uh. I can't remember everything in sequential detail, but the basics I think I can handle. So... K started hanging on me and hugging me and poking me in the chest and face and telling me basically... that she really loved me. And she loved me because I am an amazing person. And that I was her fantasy. And that she really really wanted me to succeed at Crew. Because I deserved it. And that I was a beautiful person and that she wanted me to be happy. Because I deserved to be happy. And that if any guy ever tried to fuck with me I should tell her because she would cut their balls off. And she didn't care if she went to jail. Because she'd be happy. And so on and so forth. Then she kissed me on the cheek. 

Let it be known... this happened about five different times. She took turns going around to all the girls and telling them the basics of that. (Not Crew thats just me...) 

Then Ma fell over on the floor in the bedroom so I had to help him up and carry him into the living room with Me. We were trying to lie him on his stomach on the couch but he kept rolling off. Then C kept asking if Ma wanted his shoes off and he just kept saying "Ok but... don't eat them. Please don't eat them." Then he got up and kept trying to walk again. And he was dancing weirdly. And taking his shirt off. E had to put his shirt back on and she just said to me " I just dressed a toddler..."

Then Kev was... just super freaking hyper. Like a two year old. Omg. x_x He told E that Ma liked her but she was like "Well I don't like him like that..." and then he kept freaking out that he had told her even though she technically already knew... And then E started freaking out about how she was getting tired of all the guys liking her and she didn't know why they did. 

Anyway, so ... K got sick. Me, S, and I took care of her. She ended up asleep on S's couch. Then Ma got sick in his own bathroom and I think they got him situated in his bed. Everyone else was pretty tipsy except for N, cause he'd been taking care of everyone till I got there. Then when I got there he took out his own personal bottle... lol... it was pretty crazy. So I think I ended the night as the only one without any alcohol consumption.

Well... actually more went on than that. But it's late and I have to go Urg in the morning. x_x 

Oh! We didn't have to run in the rain today! :,D We got to go to the WRAC and play basketball. Which I suck at but... I only fell three times, and the third time Hooker (yes thats his name) stepped on my ankle. But it doesn't hurt. At least not now. I think I did pretty well for not knowing a thing about basketball and I suck at ... sports in general. Lol, but I want to do well in Crew. I really do. And not just because K thinks I deserve it lol.

I'm SO sore though. Like... I can't even explain to you. It hurts to even just walk. I have to Urg in the morning so I hope it gets better by then. (Urging is a machine that you practice on for rowing. It's so freaking hard... ) K well I'm going to bed. Gnight! <3

Yes, I realize it's Five AM. No, I have not been up all night. I actually went to bed around... 11:30 or 12. I think I fell asleep around 12 or a little after. Which is really good. 

The reason I'm up is because I had... an absolutely horrible dream. I can't even pinpoint what was so horrible about it. But I mean... I haven't woken up this shaken or actually cried over a dream in a LONG time. I can't even remember the last time. But anyway. I just could not go back to sleep so I thought if I wrote it out it would help me forget about it and get sleepy again.
 I don't wanna make a super long pointless post so I'll put it under a cut (I dunno why...)

Warning: This is Freaking LONG! I didn't mean for it to be long. I'm Sorry! (Thats what cuts are for huh?)

[[Uhm. Ok, I dunno if it's just my computer, but the cut link isn't working. If you really wanted to read this, then click on the leave a comment thing and it'll pop up there. Sorry. I just suck at LJ stuff...]]

So. That was long. Anyway, when I woke up (I had apparently fallen asleep with the lamp on thank GOD) I just felt so horrible and weary and disgusted and .... I can't explain it. But with me being paranoid like I am, I had to go check the doors and make sure they were still locked and everything. But thanks to the f***ing squeaky door my dad woke up and came in there. I said it was just me and he asked what I was doing, and when I tried to say "I had a really bad dream, and I woke up so I was checking the locks." I started crying. =_= /is super lame/

He went back to bed, and I got something light to eat to settle my stomach, but when I came back in my room I kept crying. Not like bawling or anything, just tears and sniffling. Ugh. I feel so stupid. I can't even explain why it bothered me so much. It was just really horrible. I'm not gonna be able to sleep without a light for a while, cause my room is pitch black at night. I can't even see my hand in front of my face. -sounds like a baby-

The weird thing is, I can take like lots of little stuff out of that dream and tell you where it came from stuff in real life. But I wont go into that right now. I'm exhausted again. I think typing this out helped. I'm going to try to go back to sleep. If you actually sat through this whole thing, I apologize. -.-

PS: Random but... Kami/Van/Nick... thank you for being alive. Plz stay that way. KTHNX. =_=;;;;;