I hate people. I hate people so so... SO much.

My godforsaken idiotic neighbors were being REALLY loud again, so I actually called the CA this time. Because it was past 11 and there was absolutely no reason for them to have the tv that loud and be yelling that much. Well I heard the CA come up to their room and it was basically like: "Hey guys... yeah we have people complaining... yeah its not a big deal I just gotta do my job ya know... yeah so just try to be a little quieter maybe... lol... ok guys... ok -jokes around with them- Ok bye guys..."

Which didn't fucking help at ALL.

Then the neighbors start laughing even LOUDER and I can hear them going like, "Omg... I guess it came from this room?" And then they started knocking on the wall. YES. KNOCKING ON THE FUCKING WALL. I was about to go over there and punch it as hard as possible, but I know I could probably put a hole in it, so I didn't. (I'm not trying to act impressive saying i'm strong enough to punch through walls, but Mark did it, and these walls are not that thick, and I've already put one in Jason's wall with the freakin door.... That's all my sayin.)

But then they started being quieter so. My temper is still not gone though. 

I guess I'm just really emo/bitchy/whatever because I found out today that... I basically can't go home again until the semester is over and we have to actually move out of the dorms. I can go home for Easter, but I mean... it's Easter. I'm assuming all my friends are going to be doing family things all that weekend. I mean, I'm assuming I'll probably do some kind of family thing (even though my family isn't very coordinated like that x_x) over Easter. Then I come back for Spring Break Training. Then the next weekend we go to Tennessee, then the next weekend they decied we needed to have a car wash, then the next weekend we go BACK to Tennessee, then the next weekend I actually don't have a meet.... but Finals are the week after that so I'll have to stay here to study! 

I guess this just doesn't bother anyone else on the team. Maybe I'm just a wimp. I mean, I would like to go home some time, but it's not just that. It's also how any time to do anything other than school or crew is slowly dwindling into nonexistance.

And for some reason I constantly feel sick. I felt better the latter half of today but I feel bad again. I think I'm just going to go to bed rather than finishing my work. I'll do it tomorrow. -sigh-. Goodnight. Sorry for making emo posts. I'll make a happy one one day. Maybe.

Yeah, I haven't updated in forever. (Obviously). Nothing much of interest has happened. Well, I mean I guess maybe it has but nothing I feel like remembering at the moment or taking the time to type out. 

I guess... I thought going home for a weekend before not being able to go home for like a month and a half would make me feel better, but it only made it worse. I'm really homesick, and it could just be from being tired. I don't know. I can't explain it. 

Sorry this is a random emo-like post. I know this was supposed to be a good/happy journal but, whatever. 

I really don't want to go to class tomorrow. Or Crew. Or get up at all for that matter. And then Tuesday we have 6:30 AM practice. Last week's made me sick. I know most people are like "Getting up in the morning and doing a workout gets you pumped and ready for the day! You'll be able to concentrate better!" 

Sorry, but no. Early morning workouts make me sick. I feel horrid the rest of the day, and I constantly feel like I'm going to puke. Not to mention, I had shinsplints. Which isn't the end of the world in and of itself, I know everyone gets them. But I don't care. 

I guess I should go to bed before I bitch about everything else. I don't know what's wrong. I think I need a long break. Not like a month (like Christmas), but maybe just like... a week. Something long enough where I don't have to worry about going back to school for a few days, but nothing so short (like a weekend) where it doesnt even really make a difference. But no, I had to give my Spring Break up to Crew. 

Although, I do think it's kind of sneaky to not mention you have extra practices like this until AFTER everyone is signed up, and working out, and training, and raising their money and paying dues. I would rather have been told all this shit up front, you know? But then again, I'm tired. If anyone on Crew read this I'd probably get kicked off.

 I mean, it's not like I hate Crew or anything. It's quite the contrary, I enjoy it. Very much. But... knowing you're the slowest/worst one on the team isn't exactly a selfesteem booster. And when hardly anyone really talks to you, and when you say stuff to them you either get ignored or get looks like "Wow you're an idiot.", that doesn't exactly help either. (Only certain people do the latter though... So it doesn't really count. There are people like that in every group/sport/thing). 

Gah, and I need to order Pride and Prejudice for my Jane Austen class because the stupid bookstore never got the thing in. UGH. College is pissing me off. Yes, it's better than highschool. Yes, there are good people here. Yes, the classes are good and intersting. But ... then again... I'm tired. And just bitching.

So now I'm going to end my bitching post. You know what's funny? I always wonder why people get online and complain and bitch where everyone can see, and yet here I am doing it. Lol, I'm such a hypocrite. Oh well, I don't care at the moment. Not a lot of people read my LJ anyway so... it's not exactly the same thing. It's not like I'm posting this on facebook where I have the entire college and Crew team friended or anything. 

Geez. I dislike myself sometimes. Oh well. I'll learn to deal with it. Ok. Goodnight. Sorry if you actually read through this. =_=; 

Random Quote of the Day, from Charlie Bartlett: "I mean, look at me. I'm as fit as a fucking fiddle." 

;D Yeah.