Yeah, I haven't updated in forever. (Obviously). Nothing much of interest has happened. Well, I mean I guess maybe it has but nothing I feel like remembering at the moment or taking the time to type out. 

I guess... I thought going home for a weekend before not being able to go home for like a month and a half would make me feel better, but it only made it worse. I'm really homesick, and it could just be from being tired. I don't know. I can't explain it. 

Sorry this is a random emo-like post. I know this was supposed to be a good/happy journal but, whatever. 

I really don't want to go to class tomorrow. Or Crew. Or get up at all for that matter. And then Tuesday we have 6:30 AM practice. Last week's made me sick. I know most people are like "Getting up in the morning and doing a workout gets you pumped and ready for the day! You'll be able to concentrate better!" 

Sorry, but no. Early morning workouts make me sick. I feel horrid the rest of the day, and I constantly feel like I'm going to puke. Not to mention, I had shinsplints. Which isn't the end of the world in and of itself, I know everyone gets them. But I don't care. 

I guess I should go to bed before I bitch about everything else. I don't know what's wrong. I think I need a long break. Not like a month (like Christmas), but maybe just like... a week. Something long enough where I don't have to worry about going back to school for a few days, but nothing so short (like a weekend) where it doesnt even really make a difference. But no, I had to give my Spring Break up to Crew. 

Although, I do think it's kind of sneaky to not mention you have extra practices like this until AFTER everyone is signed up, and working out, and training, and raising their money and paying dues. I would rather have been told all this shit up front, you know? But then again, I'm tired. If anyone on Crew read this I'd probably get kicked off.

 I mean, it's not like I hate Crew or anything. It's quite the contrary, I enjoy it. Very much. But... knowing you're the slowest/worst one on the team isn't exactly a selfesteem booster. And when hardly anyone really talks to you, and when you say stuff to them you either get ignored or get looks like "Wow you're an idiot.", that doesn't exactly help either. (Only certain people do the latter though... So it doesn't really count. There are people like that in every group/sport/thing). 

Gah, and I need to order Pride and Prejudice for my Jane Austen class because the stupid bookstore never got the thing in. UGH. College is pissing me off. Yes, it's better than highschool. Yes, there are good people here. Yes, the classes are good and intersting. But ... then again... I'm tired. And just bitching.

So now I'm going to end my bitching post. You know what's funny? I always wonder why people get online and complain and bitch where everyone can see, and yet here I am doing it. Lol, I'm such a hypocrite. Oh well, I don't care at the moment. Not a lot of people read my LJ anyway so... it's not exactly the same thing. It's not like I'm posting this on facebook where I have the entire college and Crew team friended or anything. 

Geez. I dislike myself sometimes. Oh well. I'll learn to deal with it. Ok. Goodnight. Sorry if you actually read through this. =_=; 

Random Quote of the Day, from Charlie Bartlett: "I mean, look at me. I'm as fit as a fucking fiddle." 

;D Yeah.